dont drink when your horny - a cautionary tale

oh shit shit shit shit shit shit. I slept with Ed last night. D'ooooooh Yes there was alcohol taken and while I do consider myself a single woman I realised I was still in love with Al. Balls. Of course it dosent help that Ive known him (Ed) for years and consider him one of my best friends. It dosent also help that he was with another of my friends. True enough it was like six years ago but this stuff matters to me. The sex itself was ..... wellllll.... crap. Do you know when your in the middle of something and your discovering that no this isnt all its cracked up to be but still feel a duty to see it thru to the bitter (or in my case knee cramping) end. Yea well that was last night. Although he is a very good kisser slightly too full on but it got better. However I pretty much said that this shouldnt happen again and we've agreed to meet up next week to do our usual night at the cinema. Plus he has a date as well this week so that should help distance me (shouldnt it?)

Ah but it gets better. We were out for a drink (several) last night and met two guys we used to go to school with F and D. We had a great night I must say. At the end F and Ed dissapeared off into the toilets. Ed told me after we had sex and were sitting there recovering that the reason F and him were so long in the toilets was that he was telling Ed he quite liked me and did we want to all meet up next week. While I find this guy cute ta da yes he was also with another of my friends 3 years ago. I know it was a long time but I dunno if I would be slightly weirded out by it. PLus he is about to enlist in the army so odds are he would be posted somewhere in the country and if anything was to happen it would be a long distance thing. Plus I still have those feelings for Al. Way to go for fucking up my head again.