The disbeliever.

[baasheep]

My friend C is known for her honesty. Sometimes its appreciated. Sometimes not. This evening was more of the former. We were talking about past loves, relationships etc when she mentioned she thought I was in a not so healthy cycle. Bascially, I meet a guy, we click, we jump into bed. The next day we are witty. Phonecalls and texts ensue. Maybe a few more dates. I become too interested. He backs off. I am sad. I get tired of men and drop out of the dating game until some guy sparks my interest and it all starts again.

To be honest I'm not sure what to do about breaking the cycle. Hold off jumping into bed? I've done that before believe it or not and it still ended up the same way. I have also tried not coming across as too interested. Still it ends the same way. Right now I am in the too interested, backing off, sad and dropping out of the dating game phase. Yes yes its to do with bongo buddy. Sigh. I've caught myself thinking about him. In a romantic context. Which is not good when all we are to each other is bongos. He most definitely is not looking for more.

So guess is back to dropping out of the dating game again...this time I'm not so much sad as weary. Of the whole damn thing. Men. Who needs them?

Comments

[crowjoy.livejournal.com]

resists urge to answer rhetorical question

Got hugs though. Big ones. You know what, it will happen just like it's supposed to, don't give up completely.

[pollyhyper.livejournal.com]

Crowjoy's right, you have to just live your life and be yourself, and enjoy it for what it is. Once you are in balance and comfortable in your life, some rich, gorgeous man will come along and throw everything completely out of whack for you. :)

[guivers.livejournal.com]

Sage advice again.

And I will add: Men. Can't live with 'em, can't sell 'em for used parts.