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baasheepBusy busy busy busy. I have one more trip to make tonight to a friends to drop off her xmas present, then I will be in hibernation house mode. Speaking of the house it desperately needs to be cleaned. In that annoying way that men of my dad's generation are it generally falls on me to do the brunt of the housework. I don't really mind, true enough its not on my scale of fun things to do but there is a certain sense of satisfaction that surveying all the clean space around me brings. However this cleaning lark dropped off since I started studying for my exams a few weeks ago and having social engagements every night since they ended (yes been out every night for two weeks, yes am exhausted, yes have reached end of sociable tether)means that I am rather horrified as I survey the piles of rubble and rubbish where there used to be clean floor. In fairness to him he cleaned the kitchen and his tv room and it looks great but he's been off work since last friday, it would have been nice if the cleaning extended into the hall or indeed the landing.
On top of this I couldn't find nice flowers for my Mam's grave so instead bought bunches of holly, leaf twiggy things with red berries and pussy willow in a moment of madness thinking "I can make a wreath/arrangement". Clearly I must have been on crack while thinking this, my fingers are so black they have almost fallen off and I have never done a flower arrangement in my life not to mention the whole lack of time thing. I bought some florists wire and this other gold wire stuff so hopefully I should be able to cobble something together that dosen't look like a deranged three year old did it. Hey does tinsel go funky outside? I was thinking of winding some tinsel around the dodgey bits (you know there will be dodgey bits) but am wondering if it will look ok when it rains?
Bringing me neatly (shhh) onto my feelings about christmas. I don't think I will ever be able to view christmas in the same way AM (After Mam) as I did WM (With Mam) having said that, this christmas is so far a lot less traumatic then last christmas. For one thing hearing christmas songs dosen't reduce me to snotty tears in fact I caught myself humming along to one or two. Haven't bothered again with decorations this year but perhaps next year? I guess its true what they say, the first christmas after a loved one dies is the worst. It will be my friends first xmas without her brother so I will be sure to make time for her over the holiday when she feels up to it (she's also preggers and having a fairly rough time of it). Also its my neighbours first xmas without his wife (she died of the same cancer my Mam had) so maybe I should call into him? We aren't really close and he has loads of kids who call round to him so hopefully I will run into him outside and can catch up then? I personally would have been a bit horrified if my neighbours had of dropped by unannounced last year but thats me being the antisocial freak I am :-).
In work news things have picked up since my exams finished, I am able to devote all my attention to the job and it really shows. Best of all we got bonuses! With the redundancies earlier on this year we had been told to expect the worst but although there were no pay rises the bonus was surprisingly pleasent! With it I am paying off the last of my cc debt, paying my college fees in full, finally purchasing my much longed for wii fit (hey poooooi how do you like yours?) and socking the rest away in savings (and build me savings back up, the cc debt was eating into it) so I am v happy.
Oooh my T-Tapp book and dvd came the other day and I'm looking forward to trying it, do you think xmas day is a bad day to start (being I'll be stuffed full of chicken and ham)?
Ok off to friends, pick up some redbull on the way home then attempt to build a wreath. You have no idea how tempting my bed is right now....
On top of this I couldn't find nice flowers for my Mam's grave so instead bought bunches of holly, leaf twiggy things with red berries and pussy willow in a moment of madness thinking "I can make a wreath/arrangement". Clearly I must have been on crack while thinking this, my fingers are so black they have almost fallen off and I have never done a flower arrangement in my life not to mention the whole lack of time thing. I bought some florists wire and this other gold wire stuff so hopefully I should be able to cobble something together that dosen't look like a deranged three year old did it. Hey does tinsel go funky outside? I was thinking of winding some tinsel around the dodgey bits (you know there will be dodgey bits) but am wondering if it will look ok when it rains?
Bringing me neatly (shhh) onto my feelings about christmas. I don't think I will ever be able to view christmas in the same way AM (After Mam) as I did WM (With Mam) having said that, this christmas is so far a lot less traumatic then last christmas. For one thing hearing christmas songs dosen't reduce me to snotty tears in fact I caught myself humming along to one or two. Haven't bothered again with decorations this year but perhaps next year? I guess its true what they say, the first christmas after a loved one dies is the worst. It will be my friends first xmas without her brother so I will be sure to make time for her over the holiday when she feels up to it (she's also preggers and having a fairly rough time of it). Also its my neighbours first xmas without his wife (she died of the same cancer my Mam had) so maybe I should call into him? We aren't really close and he has loads of kids who call round to him so hopefully I will run into him outside and can catch up then? I personally would have been a bit horrified if my neighbours had of dropped by unannounced last year but thats me being the antisocial freak I am :-).
In work news things have picked up since my exams finished, I am able to devote all my attention to the job and it really shows. Best of all we got bonuses! With the redundancies earlier on this year we had been told to expect the worst but although there were no pay rises the bonus was surprisingly pleasent! With it I am paying off the last of my cc debt, paying my college fees in full, finally purchasing my much longed for wii fit (hey poooooi how do you like yours?) and socking the rest away in savings (and build me savings back up, the cc debt was eating into it) so I am v happy.
Oooh my T-Tapp book and dvd came the other day and I'm looking forward to trying it, do you think xmas day is a bad day to start (being I'll be stuffed full of chicken and ham)?
Ok off to friends, pick up some redbull on the way home then attempt to build a wreath. You have no idea how tempting my bed is right now....
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Date: 2008-12-24 07:55 pm (UTC)Be safe on the roads, the loonies are all out!! ;-)
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Date: 2009-01-05 03:09 pm (UTC)I was in the "first Christmas since loved one died" camp this year. Hard. And I'm glad to hear that it gets a little easier. Never easy, I'm sure. But easiER is good.
*HUUUUUUUUUUGS*